Talking To Myself

This is a song I wrote this week in which I was trying to encompass how I was feeling at the time. I write a lot about my mental health. The song is the product of several streams of consciousness; my dark and sometimes suicidal thoughts and how they present themselves as voices in my head, but also how there is a solidity and a realness in nature that my head lacks. The dialogue in the song reflects the internal dialogue in my head between my rational and irrational self. I often think about how I’m jealous of animals because they don’t tie themselves into mental knots like we do, or at least I do; it’s a wisdom I think humans have lost over evolution. Much of this song was inspired by a walk I was on while I was in a particularly bad frame of mind, I was noticing all the animals I past. I was imagining that they were taking note of my frame of mind like it was a visible aura around me, and I also imagined though that they were understanding me in a way I can’t myself though I still felt a distance between us; both me and the animals I past, but also modern human beings and nature. That’s as best I can explain the process of writing the song I think. I hope it’s understandable, I’ve been told my processes can be hard to understand, I can’t even understand them myself!